'I think she pushed him,' I said to you quietly. 'I think she pushed him . . .'
The arrival of baby Violet was meant to be the happiest day of my life. But as soon as I held her in my arms I knew something wasn't right.
I had always known that the women in my family aren't meant to be mothers.
My husband Fox says I'm imagining it. He tells me I'm nothing like my own mother, and that Violet is the sweetest child.
But she's different with me. Something feels very wrong.
Is it her? Or is it me? Is she the monster? Or am I?
The Push is an unsettling, breathtaking and powerful read about obsession and our deepest fears that will stay with you long after you turn the final page.
'Taut, chilling, executed with gripping precision. Audrain nimbly stokes the mystery' New York Times
'A suspenseful thriller. Will have you in its grips from the very first page - and stay with you long after you've put it down. Do not miss' Heat
'Suspenseful, dark and intriguing . . . essential for book groups' Stylist
'Unsettling, visceral, provocative, compulsive' Sarah Vaughan
'The most thought-provoking exploration of motherhood since We Need to Talk About Kevin' Clare Pooley, bestselling author of The Authenticity Project
'Fans of 'mum noir' are in for a treat' Daily Mail
'Audrain sustains the suspense expertly through assured handling of her unravelling protagonist's voice' Sunday Times
**Soon to be adapted for the screen by the producer of Once Upon a Time...in Hollywood, Marriage Story and Gravity**